Duchess Meghan admits she’s ‘not ok’ and is struggling to adapt to life in the spotlight as a royal

By Zach Harper

When Duchess Meghan and Prince Harry were in South Africa as part of the royal tour earlier this year, ITV’s Tom Bradby worked with them on a documentary that is set to air in the UK this weekend.

Harry & Meghan: An African Journey features Tom’s candid conversations with the Duke and Duchess of Sussex, who opened up about their lives since they were married and welcomed baby Archie Harrison. Harry and Meghanrecentlylaunched legal actions against several UK publications.

Tom asked Meghan about media pressure she’s dealt with since becoming a royal, and she teared up as he posed the question. You can watch a trailer for the documentary below.

“[Harry’s] obviously very concerned, protecting you, and protecting you from what he felt his mother went through,” he said. “It’s obviously an issue one has to tiptoe into very gently. But I don’t know what the impact on your physical and mental health, of all the pressure that you clearly feel under…”

Meghan, her eyes watering, shifted and then said, “I would say… look, any woman, especially when they’re pregnant, you’re really vulnerable, and so that was made really challenging. And then when you have a newborn… you know?”

“It’s a long time ago, but I remember, yeah,” Tom replied.

“And especially as a woman, it’s really… it’s a lot, so you add this on top of just trying to be a new mum or trying to be a newlywed… it’s, um…” she said, clearly struggling to maintain composure. “Yeah, well, I guess… and also thank you for asking because not many people have asked if I’m ok, but it’s a… very real thing to be going through behind the scenes.”

“And the answer is… would it be fair to say, not really ok? As in, it’s really been a struggle?” Tom asked.

“Yes,” Meghan said.

As for Harry, he spoke very bluntly about the effect that the death of his mother, Princess Diana, has had on him since he was a child. He told Tom being around the press is difficult for him personally and brings back horrible memories of his mother being pursued by photographers.

While in Angola, Harry visited the site of his mother’s minefield walk, which is now a bustling street called Princess Diana Street with a tree named after the late ‘People’s Princess.’ He was overwhelmed and took some time to rest underneath it. Photo: © Dominic Lipinski/AFP/Getty Images

“Every time I see a camera, every single time I hear a click, every single time I see a flash, it takes me straight back, so in that respect, it’s the worst reminder of her life as opposed to the best,” he said.

While he was in southern Africa, Harry returned to Angola, where Diana walked through a minefield in January 1997 to raise awareness about the issue of landmines and the devastating effects they were having on the country. The eradication of landmines worldwide is a cause he has continued to champion since 2010.

“Being here [in South Africa] now 22 years later trying to finish what she started will be incredibly emotional, but everything that I do reminds me of her,” he told Tom. “But as I said with the role, with the job, and the sort of pressure that come with that, I get reminded of the bad stuff, unfortunately.”

UK viewers will be able to watch Harry & Meghan: An African Journey on ITV this Sunday. Hopefully it will be available for royals fans outside the UK very soon.

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